During my quick trip to the Red Mountain Spa in hippy-dippy St. George, Utah, I had a one-track mind: to visit their shaman who I’d heard so much about from my friend Diana. Betina was a calm soul with a smile that lit up the room. I enjoy trying these spiritual treats and never turn down a touch of magic. (This was just a few months after trying hypnotherapy for the first time.) So I walked into Betina’s suite with an eager, open mind. The sweeping southwest landscapes were the perfect backdrop for this kind of adventure– being surrounded by miles and miles of untouched earth put me immediately into a peaceful state of mind.
Like most women in their 30s, I’m willing to bet, I am interested in being lighter, of scraping away the bitterness that comes from too many bad dates and working too hard for too many years. Betina likes to visualize this by explaining that you still have the “child you” inside, and when things don’t go right, when you get dumped or fired or whatever else, she’s the one who takes it all in. And so I went on a journey to save my inner child and feel lighter and free.
I actually found this especially interesting because I have indeed been talking about my younger self recently. During my two years of unemployment, I worked on a dating book that ultimately didn’t get off the ground. But the research was fascinating — and my friend and I were focused on learning to date like the carefree women we were in our early 20s, but with the knowledge we know now.
While I was living in Costa Rica, I did a lot of reading on intention and changing the mind to get what you want. Upon my return, I unpacked a letter I had received during my confirmation at church, when I was just 13. The reading was almost exactly what I had been studying so furiously.
If only it had sunk in more when I was younger!
I’ve also been doing yoga now for more than 10 years, and one of the main parts of class is always your intention. So I am always thinking of what I want in life, of that day, of the near future, usually starting off with someone along the lines of “I hope that.” But Betina had me take that one step further:
Every single morning for 28 days I am to show gratitude for the things I want as if they have already happened.
This made me have a flashback to some class at church, and I have no idea what age I was, of being told to thank God every single day for not only what happened that day but for what is going to happen — because God has already viewed all the days of our lives.
Once again, I was re-learning what I already knew.
I greatly enjoyed this trip down memory lane. What a reminder that whatever spiritual journey you are on, we really are on the same path. I’ve been on somewhat of a spiritual rampage these past few years, dipping into any- and everything. And yet, the ideas and concepts are the same.